Paradox of "Truth"

Paradox best seems to explain paradoxity. The death of fantasy is not merely the evaporation of "the truth" but it is also failure of fetish and opening of a path towards the demystification of "the truth" into being "a mere lame truthification of false truth".  I wanted to write eulogy of death of fantasy but then question struck in my mind: is it death of my fantasy or fantasies are born to die through miserable death-without having funerals and graves? Or this kind of animal is always tamed in this illusion of fantasy-as to create at first impression that we are supermen. So that second can happen- which is to fall-down in first flight of supermenity into the abyss of reality?  I was reading Michel Foucault's book "  The Courage of Truth" and Giorgio Agamben's book " What is an Apparatus?". Interestingly i see that both tell us that this urge of knowing is implicated to implicate someone from one implication to other one-i.e. from one state of desire to the other state of desire. Or Like someone thinks he/she is trapped somewhere and he/she  need to get freedom from this chain of imprisonment as to be liberated. This urge of fantasy is described by Michel Foucault as " the Socratic principle of " Know yourself" (pp-4). He calls this principle parrhesia, which in french means a modality of truth-telling. He says the act of truth making is manifested through this truth-telling realism -which he says is located in this modality.  My Italian friend Giorgio Agamben says to similar kind of thing "apparatus". He says "by the term "apparatus" i mean a kind of formation, to speak, that at a given historical moment has as its major function the response to an urgency. The apparatus therefore has dominant strategic function".  


So where is liberation? what about agency? what about comradeship of knowledge? isn't we been told that this knowledge shall give us light to find way when we are lost in the dark nights?


My friends might be angry with me. They might think i am leading them to dead-end without any reason-and i merely take two points and get crazy with this my so called Newtonian moment to vomit.


So  dose my monologue-which is my own whisperefication of truth making/truth-telling modality through a apparatus is also also implicated in above paradox? 

So i am might fall in my own fallacy?-yes my  friend-that is my point-me, i, you and we all can fall in our own fallacies of truth making -in search of truth and after death of our fantasies -become nostalgic for fantasy-till we find another fantasy.