Confession: On plateaus of introvert monologue

Stranger...... stranger ......stranger........that's what your silence means?
Am i.......the beast of the beast.......?
Damon of wishes.....
God of sins...
what else...
says it...write it.... speak it.... even if it is whisper....
your silence is minefield of apathy.......each pour of body is shattered in water like drops of air.
Horizontal...vertical....centripetal ...centrifugal ....where should i go....?

I lost all maps… and I don’t know where is right and where is left? (Ask my friends).
Rain of pain had forested my desert ...
trees with trunks nesting birds of desire
bees stinging oh my face...
jungle of wilderness....
i am ghost there in lamb's womb ...
re-birth me oh the midwife of life.
Oh my mom....friends...and foes..... And my wild thorns you the one grown-up in/on my chest, throat, and face.....
Why not (you) let me moment of rhizomes and madness.....
"I wanted to correct you"..........that's what the last hope echoed....
......stingy lexicons...
where can i find verses of/for existentialism (existentiality) ...
Abode of livability ......invisible mirroring....
They can't hear my murmurs ....neither do i............

Did it …dig it….. Dig it deep... the archaeologist of schizophrenia…
Garlands of pity -garments of insanity …..

I am the infidel in the castle of piety,

Burn me….bury me…. send my grave to the blue moon[i]…

I will germinate………..i will germinate …

Let me germinate into the clouds

Let me breath it ……let me breathe you…..

Let it go…. Let it go………….

Let the prisoners of fear be free

Let the ghost of being haunt us

Let’s be wild in non-being-ality

Let’s burn all cartographies of known-ality

Let’s get lost inside I-ality, me-ality, and in mine-ality (so after that nowhere to go??????)

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[i] One of the planets in the universe where some kind of life exist in different shape